Starting from now, this blog will officially go on permanent hyatus.
I started this blog with the intent of collecting resources and translating them in my language, but soon enough I ended up getting interested in the truscum vs identity brigade debate.
At first I didn’t understand the point behind truscum blogs. I had left toxic spaces full of trans elitists before, and I mistakenly thought that these blogger were doing exactly the same thing.
However, the more I read their blogs expecting to get angry at them, the more I started to realize that they actually had good points. Reading their posts opened my eyes to the fact that people were actually latching to the “trans” label as a fad, much like what happened to self-harm and teenagers who glorified it and glorified illnesses such as depression and used them as a fad to be edgy and “different”.
I became at first a supporter, because I was uncomfortable with the idea of adopting the label even if I did agree with the basic idea (honestly, before tumblr I thought that everyone who “identified” as trans did so because they had dysphoria, because it just didn’t cross my mind that someone could actually claim to be transsexual despite not having the defining symptoms of G.I.D.), and later I came to accept the label because there was no point in hiding behind a pretense of neutrality when I was sure I agreed with most of the points that were brought up.
It’s been frustrating, because having to deal with people who seem to have zero reading comprehension and repeating things ad nauseam gets rather annoying, but overall it’s been a very positive esperience for me. I was pleasantly surprised to find a supportive community, and I got to know some pretty cool individuals.
Trust me, if I’m leaving this blog it has nothing to do with you guys (and gals and peeps in general).
It’s just that this whole truscum thing is rather time-consuming, I have to constantly restrain myself and tone everything down, to try and set a good example and show that I’m not just some asshole who wants to rant angrily and is needlessly rude to people, and this takes quite an amount of self-control for me. I have to look up sources whenever I want to make a serious point, and this takes time. I end up getting involved into arguments, and while I do like debates they require me to spend quite a bit of work on them because I have to be careful of how it’s worded, check that what I want to say is understandable, check that I didn’t make any glaring grammatical error, try to ensure that I wasn’t too sarcastic in my reply, etc.
I just will not have the time nor the patience for all this from now on. Until now I’ve been pretty much stuck at my parents’ home, jobless (thanks to this shitty economy), unable to pursue higher education (too expensive) and basically with too much time on my hands and no motivation to do anything particularly productive. Now that I’m trying to move abroad, I will have less time to derp around, and honestly I want to use that time to relax and sure, I can and still will talk about my own experience, but I don’t want to waste so much time arguing with people who can’t seem to have basic reading comprehension and constantly walking on eggshells to try and avoid offending anyone in the process.
I am taking away my “about” page and the page about my views because 1) I don’t want to have personal stuff in a place I will no longer monitor, and 2) because gods know that view can change over time, and leaving my current opinions here as if they are my “final word” when for all I know I could convert and decide to become a Buddhist monk in the future (I’m being absurd on purpose, it’s to make an example), well it just seems so very limiting. I am not the same person I was two years ago, and who knows, moving away might change me more than I expect and I will no longer be the same person I am now.
As for the moment, my views have not changed, and I mean in general. As for my views on transsexuality, I still view it as a medical condition and I still support the trans medicalist view, I just do not wish to continue to be involved in the truscum movement because I don’t think I can be as invested in it as I’ve been until now.
I want to focus on other things. I will move to another blog, too. I’m not linking it here, but if you wish to follow me there, just send me an ask or a fan mail and I will give you the link.
I will also be unfollowing some blogs, mainly because I don’t want to be tempted to get involved into discussing about this whole topic again, so please don’t be offended it’s nothing personal! If you have another blog less focused on truscum things and more on personal stuff, even trans related stuff, you can link it to me and I can follow you there instead.